I finally get to see Tingyi yesterday! 3 days since I last saw her.. I think I'm turning lesbian that if I don't see her for one day I feel damn weird. I'm still worried about the trail on Tues. I don't want to go alone. I wish I had somebody to train with, somebody good. Life isn't that bad now, but its still not like before. I still miss F. I can feel that A and me is drifting. I'm broke again due to my curler. I think its time, I mend things up.